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by jwbp » Sat Mar 28, 2009 3:20 pm
darinhouston,
I'm sure it can be hard on loved ones. The things that I went through with OCD wasn't as bad as some, though it was irritating sometimes and I never really shared it with my family or friends. But I have overcome.
I remember that at times I started to be tempted to fear that I ran over someone and didn't know it, but I usually stamped that out by reasoning that someone would call the cops and find me-which is what I wanted. I overcame by God totally, but I decided at different times that I would not do it anymore and trust God to take care of me. You really have to pray, and be determined.
As for the panic attacks-they were so bad. And you get scared they may last forever. Like this will go on for the rest of your life. But you got to fight. I knew that my panic attacks did not grow out of a physical condition and anxiety was not from God. And my panic attacks did not come at certain thoughts but they came at any time. And you know just when I thought that I could take no more, it never failed that I would pray to God about it and God would make it cease. It was amazing that even in my sin He was so good to me. Some of Steve's teachings actually helped me to believe the truth that I could overcome. You see it's a battle in your mind and you must know and meditate on the truth that you need for that day. But I cannot stress enough that you can overcome.
I guess I can only speak for my situation, but I do know something about how crazy it is. And I do know you must be dilligent in praying and reading the Bible no matter how you think or feel or even if you feel God has abandoned you or you feel you no longer are saved, you must be diligent in these no matter what and tell God you will still follow Him anyways. You must decide to follow God and surrender to Him-or I had to-and tell Hill Your will be done if I keep this anxiety or not.
Also I would say that honesty with God about how you feel and how you think about Him -with a willing heart to change. And share how you feel with someone-in my case my wife.
Now I no longer have panic attacks, they are gone. Any fear that is in me-speaking for myself here-is because I have not dealt with it yet. And I must say it can take or not take a while. But one must be active in figthing it and willing to suffer. Facing it and not letting it run me helped a lot. One must go through the fear and pain with God's Word-well me at least- to overcome.
I know this is my story hope it helps some.
jwbp
I used to have them years ago when I had stomach problems combined with travel (even travel to a friends house). It also got me to the point where I would sometimes have panic attacks when away from home because I thought I might be ill out in public. I still don't like eating out with people I don't know very well for fear of this very thing, especially when it's eating somewhere I've never been. Hang in there Bro! 
