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by brody196 » Wed Mar 25, 2009 10:26 pm
Thanks guys and girls for all of your responses in my "I wish I had more of the HS thread".. All of you have given some very good advice and wisdom. The reason I am starting another thread is because I am taking the conversation in a very different direction, and I am eager to hear/read your thoughts on what I am about to share.
I feel as if I should share a little more background on what I am talking about. Please know that before I tell my personal struggle, that I understand if you do not understand what I am about to say.
For about 11 or so years I have struggled with a very strange issue. I have a phobia or problem leaving my town. When I attempt to leave, I get a very sick feeling, almost like a panic attack. This is very inconvenient considering the small size of the town in which I live. I have had breakthroughs here and there, but I lose the majority of the time. I was not there for either of my children' births(they were born 30 miles from my town), and I have missed many good opportunities because of this rare and strange condition.
I was very fortunate to be blessed with an understanding and loving wife, who has never got to experience going on vacations with her husband, out to eat at nice restaurants, ETC... My little girl is in tee ball now, and I shudder to think that I am going to miss her first game because I can't travel just nine miles to watch her game. I have also been in some serious pain due to dental problems that have developed in the last year or so, but as you probably have guessed, the nearest dentist is 30 miles from my town.
My attitude is very positive about all of this, God has really been there for me, and I can't really complain one bit. I glorify Christ in this matter, and will never give up. But I do get weary sometimes, and I am sure that this problem has some kinda purpose. Though I have no clue what that purpose is.
On a final note, I have been to several Doctors and such, but there only cure comes in the form of very addictive mind altering drugs. I absolutely refuse to take anything that turns me into a walking corpse. I trust that God can heal me.
What do you think?